gone.

where i live now.

one hundredth.

It's such a lonely existence with you.

"And let our bodies intertwine, but darling understand - that everything, everything ends."

other half.

My light, my support, my shoulder, my piece to the puzzle, my all.

If I could express to you the love I hold in my heart for you, or measure the respect I feel every time I look at you, believe me I would. But as that is near impossible, I want to thank you. You have picked me up every time I have fallen over, dusted me off and assisted me to walk along. You have influenced my choices, made me think twice before I make a regrettable decision and made me take a closer look at the true fortune I have gained in the people I surround myself with. You say you cannot feel my pain - I would never, never inflict that upon you, however I know that with every step I take and every time I break a part of you bleeds with me. I wish I could make things better for the both of us, but we both know that these things take time before they can take the true course they need to take. After everything we have seen and everything we know, our tears and laughter, our anger, our sadness and our happiness; I can do nothing but carry you when your legs are numb, hold you up when your knees are weak, and steady you when the ground shakes. Together we will continue to learn, with every thing you and I undertake and overcome. Together we will become bigger and better with every day that passes us by. Together we will "conquer it all". You own my heart - I adore you.


We will see better days, I promise. ♥

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When will the road end ?
My limbs have grown weary from carrying my torso.
My heart feels as if it were a dead weight,
hanging from a string from my rib in my chest.
I cannot shake the thought of you.
I calm my heightened senses,
they try to steal me away into the night,
playing with my thoughts, wrestling with my common sense.
Whispering to me in the night
The thought of a new ending to an
Endless beginning.

it's been too long.

I have now decided I will be posting to the girl and the robot frequently. Which means all my ramblings, thoughts, etc. will be posted to that blog, and this will become a site for my finished pieces - my essays, my stories, my photos, and my "collections". So that will be all words, and this will become a vault for my creative pieces.

No need to update anyone on the events that happened this weekend - they can remain within my memory, and if not, shows how significant they must have been. I just don't know where to head from here. "One year older, but sure as hell not wiser."

I am now seventeen.

my playlist.

10 Mile Stereo - Beach House
The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
Biko - Bloc Party
The Unforgiven III - Metallica
The Dolphins Cry - Live
Look After You - The Fray
Sea Out - The Guillemots
May Angels Lead You In - Jimmy Eat World
Broken Wings - Flyleaf
I Can Feel A Hot One - Manchester Orchestra
Love Me Tender - Norah Jones
The Blowers Daughter - Damien Rice
Lightning Crashes - Live
Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5

thanks to him.

I no longer know how I feel, or what to think. I lose all my inhibitions and sense of direction. My self control is slipping, slipping, slipping away. My perception of right and wrong becomes skewed. My thoughts flutter at a million miles an hour. I have flashbacks of the worst thing that happened to me. I feel sublimely happy yet sickeningly confused at the same time. I am beginning to develop a sense of guilt. I find it impossible to justify my actions, yet my actions become impossible to control. I cannot explain a single thing to do with this situation. My mood swings are out of whack. I've become delerious, illiterate, a fool. I don't know what to say anymore.

a new chapter.

the girl and the robot.




I will still be posting to this blog frequently. Right now I just need a change of scenery.

proverbs 7:6-9.

For at the window of my house
I looked out through my lattice,
and I saw among the simple ones,
I observed among the youths,
a young man without sense,
passing along the street near her corner,
taking the road to her house
in the twilight, in the evening,
at the time of night and darkness.

10 mile stereo.

The heart is a stone and this is a stone that we throw
Put your hand on this stone, it's the stone of a home you know
They say we'll go far, but they don't know how far we'll go
With our legs on the edge and our feet on the horizon

They say we can throw far but they don't know how far we throw
With our legs on the edge, and our feet on the horizon
The heart is a stone, and this is a stone that we throw
They say we will go far, but they don't know how far we'll go

It can't be gone, we're still right here
It took so long, can't say we heard it all
Limbs parallel, we stood so long we fell
Tear a moment from the days that carry us on forever

This push and pull is the force of a wave of time
In the heat of the night, we would cry, you are not mine
They said we would go far, but they don't know how far we'd go
'Cause this heart is a stone, and this is a stone that we throw

It can't be gone, we're still right here
It took so long, can't say we felt it all
Limbs parallel, we stood so long we fell
Love's like a pantheon, it carry us on forever

It can't be gone, we're still right here
It took so long, can't say we felt it all
Limbs parallel, we stood so long we fell
Love's like a pantheon, it carries on forever